Becoming a fugitive

یک سری اتفاقات وجود داره که باعث میشه فرد به خودش شک کنه، به همونی که باید یاشه، به اینکه شاید من واقعا اونی نبودم که فکر می کردم و به اینکه شاید بقیه راست میگن. و از همه بدترش این که همه چیز بر علیه توست و نمی تونی هیچ اویدنسی واسه حرفات داشته باشی ، شواهدی که به خودت ثابت شی.... 

 You are a fraud, the people swallow it, because the evidence shows that. Someone wanna you to be destroyed and you have given them a perfect ammunition 

Yes, I'm a fake, they were right all along, tell everyone I made for my own purpose, no matter. I'll just be myself

I am prepared to do anything I want, prepared to burn , prepared to do what ordinary people won't do. I may be on the side of angels, but don't think for one second that I am one of them

In this farewell, there's no ALIBI. I Felt the EMPTINESS.. What I've done

 ( ME AND SHERLOCK )  

 

When The Sun Falls, You Have Just 8 Minutes Left

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I occasionally think of unknowns,  think of our questions, the way we are facing to all the matters of life, our final destination, and so on... But the most irritating of them is the fact that maybe we are tricked, maybe we are the characters of a huge, enormous computer game designed by whom we call God, the one who has programmed everything. The great writer and designer of all

 Have you ever thought about behaving as who is programmed, now I don't want to continue anymore, Lethargic enough... Perhaps one day arises when you figured this fact out that you were tricked, that you had found the answers, but they were somehow distorted. You had searched all your moments of being in order to seek the truth and you had gotten some results, but as the functions of your brain were kind of convertible or maybe the functions of the whole universe surrounding you, they weren't what should have been achieved

I finish this post with a lovely quotation by one of the great physicists of the world and to be more precise the world of particles, professor Brian Cox, actually one of my heroes =) he said this 

 Yes, In a sense. I'm comfortable with the unknown, that's the point of science. There are places out there billions of places out there that we know nothing about. And the fact that we know nothing about them excites me, and I want to go out and find out about them. And that's what science is. So I think if you're not comfortable with the unknown, then it's difficult to be a scientist. So I don't need an answer; I don't need answers to everything. I want to have answers to find

 

:)

الان که این پست داره نوشته میشه دیگه خیلی چیزا فرق کرده تنها چیزی که هنوز یه ته نگاه و یه امیدی هست که اونم خیلی کم رنگه نوبله. بقیه چیزا تموم شدن. به جاشون تصمیم گرفتم بعد از این 6 سال که 24 ساله شدم گرچه خیلیم دیره برم توی تیم بانوان آرسنال :)

آرسنال همش مثل منه همشون پر از آرزو هستن، نتیجه و جام براشون مهم نیست و فقط کلاسه که اهمیت داره و تلاششون. اونا انبار مهماتن، اما پر از فراز و نشیب. اونجا سوپراستار نمیخرن بلکه اونارو میسازن. اونجا پول همه چیز نیست. همیشه داورا بر علیهششونن ولی..... شعارشون مبنای زندگی منه:

"Victory grows out of harmony" , "form is temporary, class is permanent" 

و در آخر 

Being a pharmacist and a keen fan of Arsenal and Arsene Wenger , then the only element for you would be Arsenic, the only fascinating ion would be Arsenate and finally the only drug would be Trisenox :D

I think we live in a competitive world, and I DO LOVE COMPETITION